Simplifying Sarah

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It’s not enough to have healthy relationship goals with my husband…
It’s not enough to have healthy spiritual goals with God…
It’s not enough to *think about* being healthy…
I have to do it, my way, all by myself…
Time for big girl undies…

-Mrs. W.

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I was listening to the song “My Romance” by Jesus Culture this morning… it came on while I was in the shower, and after I got out and dressed I replayed it, and even busted out my Angel Wing Banners and just danced before the Lord in my bedroom… it was beautiful.

“The angels dance around You
The earth it sings about You
Open up the heavens Lord
Let Your Kingdom come to earth
My praises all surround You
My soul can’t dance without You
Open up the heavens Lord
Let Your kingdom come to earth”

Last night, after I had read my chapter from Stanley’s book, I continued to read in 1 Samuel where Samuel annoints David, and it struck me for the first time, just how much God really loves the underdog! If it were modern day, and I was in Jesse’s living room, I imagine it might look something like this…

“One of my sons is going to be annointed? Well, here, take this one, he’s my first born- he’s got everything going for him, and he’s good ‘king’ material… See? Oh… you don’t want this one… well- he’s the second born, this is what he’s good at, oh… not him either? (All the way through until Samuel asked if there were any more sons)… Well, we have David, but he’s the youngest… really not much more than a child now, and quite frankly, I’ve already introduced you to my best… But… whatever you say.” Maybe it was completely different than that, but it also struck out how Samuel told them ‘we will not sit down until you bring him’… I don’t know if Samuel was alone, and was talking about him and God, since God was communicating so freely, or if he brought his entourage with him… but I like the idea of God not sitting down and giving up on me. There are so many times he could have been like ‘Geesh, Sarah really isn’t getting it… thats it, I’m done”, but He saw, and continues to see, the bigger picture of my life. Yeah, choosing another son may have made a better “king” (maybe), but we would sure be missing a huge chunk of the Bible if it didn’t concern David! God saw the bigger picture… and I need to look for the bigger picture in my life too.

-Mrs. W.

 

So, I have used Creative Writing Prompts in other blog posts before, though none yet on WordPress. Tonight’s blog comes from “List 7 reasons to turn down a marriage proposal” prompt… I’m not sure yet whether or not I’ll be serious about my list, but we’ll see!

  1. You just met the guy online, and “Inglich is nut him naiitive langage” (English is not his native language). Please, RUN.
  2. Your truest friends don’t like the guy… while other people’s opinions shouldn’t be the sole reason for dating/not dating someone, if they can’t stand him, maybe you’re just blinded by lust or in puppy love.
  3. He has ever kissed you and called you by someone elses name… maybe he’s juggling a little too much!
  4. Everyone thinks he’s gay, and your thought process says “okay maybe he’s a bit flamboyant, and I’m a little naive/desperate…”
  5. Whenever you’ve talked marriage before, he hasn’t respected your wishes, or come to agreements with you on big-ticket items(ring/no ring, family/no family, elope/big wedding, kids/no kids, religious differences).
  6. If he gives the attitude to his friends of “Look what he’s got”… he’s only going to parade you around once you’re engaged/married, and it’ll never be about your happiness, but you’ll be an item that he conquered… once there’s no more fight, and nothing left to conquer it usually leads to boredom.
  7. If you both haven’t sought God’s direction, and prayed for his glory and for his will to be done, in your separate and possibly together lives, you better not say ‘yes’… You don’t want to open up your future for a whole mess. Some of these may be funny, but in all seriousness, marriage is an extremely serious covenant relationship between you, your spouse, and God and it can lead to true JOY or to being a gut-wrenching miserable experience… but no matter what, it’s for LIFE… (Sure, Mr. W. and I have had our share of ups and downs, but at the end of every night, no matter how the day has been all I want is a kiss good night, and even the small things-good, or bad- lead to true joy!).

Marriage has been a difficult, enjoyable, hair-pulling, kiss-giving, crying, laughing, lonely, social, JOY filled experience! I know I contradict myself in those sentences, somewhat… but that’s life! I could be all alone and experience all of those things, and be half the woman I am, without my husband! He does not COMPLETE me, but GOD does! God knew just who I needed, and because of that, we do fit like a puzzle… and as life goes on, I’m happy to keep finding new pieces to add!

Love,
-Mrs. W.

I feel like I’ve been experiencing so many changes in life, lately. I’m learning a few things about change, and I guess my first ‘real’ post on wordpress can be this blog. Just a few thoughts I’ve had running around my brain.
When everything changes…

Where are you?
When everything changes in life, where do you go? Do you turn to God, to your church, and to your brothers and sisters in Christ… or do you turn to “the world”? The world can only offer superficial things, depression, heartache, loneliness… possibly happiness, but not true joy. I’m noticing more and more that I used to turn to the world, even though I loved God. It wasn’t that I didn’t know better- I just didn’t think about my actions, before I acted out… this definitely led to some instability and depression. Now, I’m trying to stop freaking out when stuff starts cracking… I’ve been turning more to God- letting him pick up the pieces, count them, and put Humpty back together again. My glue kind of sucks, even when I’m successful in and of myself. However, God’s glue is more potent than Gorilla Glue.

Who are you?
When everything changes in life, who are you? I’ve been thining lately about things I’ve seen and done in my past, as well as things I’ve seen others do. I’ve seen people go through times of change and lose their identity. One minute you know them, and the next minute they act completely different, and sometimes it makes you think ‘Who are you, and where did _____ go?’ Those moments are OUCH moments. Ouch when you have to ask someone that, because they’re typically offended, and ouch when it’s your turn to be asked those questions… It’s like- hold up, whoa, stop for a minute, sorry for the inconvenience, but in whom does your identity lie? I’m guilty of saying I’m a Daughter of the King, but when it comes to harsh changes, questioning that same King. In those times, I need to ask myself “Hold up, who are you- and where did Sarah really go?”

What are you?
When everything changes, what are you really made of? This isn’t really a point as much as it is a question. I’d say that concerning Mr. W’s job changes we’ve dealt with since marriage, that I’ve consistently been in a whirlwind of change. Sometimes it feels like just when the winds stop blowing, and things start to settle, I see the trees blowing softly again, the winds starting all over again. My faith needs to be built on solid rock, not shifting sands. There is nothing worse than a windy day at the beach when you get sand blown into your eyes. It’s happened to me before, and it basically sucks. If you build your faith, and your foundation on something shifty, it’ll ruin your vision and your perspective.

Once again, Mr. W is changing jobs. We’re hoping and praying that this job will be the one he gets hired in full time. It’s been since December of 2008 since he’s had a full time permanent job (not through a temp service). I feel as if my glue bottle is empty, and God is the only one I can turn to. People ask why he is changing jobs so much, and I don’t have an answer- I just don’t know. All of this has helped me grow into a woman who turns to God, and who isn’t afraid of asking for help from her church family… I’m also no longer afraid of boldly proclaiming that I am a Child of God, and that I’m pretty sure I don’t have bones, I have steel rods that keep me standing. 🙂 Okay, maybe no steel rods, but I’m solid.

Where, Who, and What…Three questions to ask yourself in the midst of change… and maybe just maybe, the “Why is this happening to me?” won’t overtake you as much.

Praying God’s Best,
-Mrs. W.