Simplifying Sarah

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I know I haven’t posted a ‘daily devo’ blog all weekend, but I haven’t given up doing them. Saturday, I read that devotion with Mr. W. and talked about it with him, instead of blogging about it, and Sunday was church all day- I was in the word all day, and didn’t have my Stanley book with me. So, today I’ll blog again, about my devotional, and maybe a little extra.

One week ago, Mr. W. and I had serious discussions about our marriage, where it was, and where it was going… we also had discussions about wanting to change it’s direction, and other changes that must occur in order for overall, big change, to occur.

  1. We’re looking for a new apartment, something closer to my job, and a fair landlord.
  2. We’re looking to be by ourselves, for the first time in over a year- we got a roommate when we were married for only 3 months, and we never got the ‘honeymoon period’… We deserve it!
  3. We’ve changed churches already, that was a huge weight off of Mr. W.’s shoulders… He did a praise dance at church last night, the first one in about 8 months… first time dancing with banners and everything, in 8 months… it was incredible. He is incredible… and seeing God work through him is ABSOLUTELY incredible.
  4. Mr. W. got hired in! He is no longer a temp, he is an employee!! AND, in 30 days (from today), he’ll be eligible for Union Benefits, as well as another pay raise!! Today is his first day making serious money, and I am just amazed at how quickly God answers earnest prayers, once we are right with Him (and not just seeing him as a genie in a bottle to rub when you are feeling needy).

Overall, I can tell I’m standing at the beginning of a new season, looking into the horizon of what good is going to come. It’s a fresh start, and a new beginning… I’ll say it over and over again- AIN’T GOD GOOD!?!?!?! (I know it’s not gramatically correct)…

Blessed, despite of “me”,
-Mrs. W.

Sometimes when you are married you have to do things for your spouse. When I was really hurt by a church we used to attend, even though Mr. W. didn’t know I was hurt, he agreed to find another place to worship… and we’ve been there for 7 months. We have become good friends with the people of this church, and have even been in ministry positions (worship team, children’s church, etc.)… but it has come full cycle. I am no longer hurt by the other church, God has healed a lot of things within me, and I have been blossoming…

However, Mr. W. has not been…. so what do we do? Plenty of married couples go to different churches, or different bodies of worship, however that’s not what I feel is right. For me, as a wife, sometimes I need to step to the side to allow my husband to lead us… and if he’s not in a position to want to lead, then I must step to the side, and push him forward. I never want to be the kind of wife who wears the pants, pulls the reins, and controls everything!! What about that is Biblical? Don’t worry, I’m not going to stop wearing make-up or growing my hair out and covering it, I’m not called to those laws… but I am called to more… to respect… read:

“Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands.  

Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish. In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, because we are members of his body.  “Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.” This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church. However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.” Ephesians 5.22-33 ESV 

So, for now, we’re going to try going to a church which will nurture and help Andy grow in his (prophetic) giftings… because when I look up front and see him on the worship team, and he’s just singing and not worshipping freely it brings me pain… that is what is important, being able to worship God freely, and see God moving mountains in my husband’s personal life… because when things start changing in his life, things will change for us.

Always,
-Mrs. W.

I feel like I’ve been experiencing so many changes in life, lately. I’m learning a few things about change, and I guess my first ‘real’ post on wordpress can be this blog. Just a few thoughts I’ve had running around my brain.
When everything changes…

Where are you?
When everything changes in life, where do you go? Do you turn to God, to your church, and to your brothers and sisters in Christ… or do you turn to “the world”? The world can only offer superficial things, depression, heartache, loneliness… possibly happiness, but not true joy. I’m noticing more and more that I used to turn to the world, even though I loved God. It wasn’t that I didn’t know better- I just didn’t think about my actions, before I acted out… this definitely led to some instability and depression. Now, I’m trying to stop freaking out when stuff starts cracking… I’ve been turning more to God- letting him pick up the pieces, count them, and put Humpty back together again. My glue kind of sucks, even when I’m successful in and of myself. However, God’s glue is more potent than Gorilla Glue.

Who are you?
When everything changes in life, who are you? I’ve been thining lately about things I’ve seen and done in my past, as well as things I’ve seen others do. I’ve seen people go through times of change and lose their identity. One minute you know them, and the next minute they act completely different, and sometimes it makes you think ‘Who are you, and where did _____ go?’ Those moments are OUCH moments. Ouch when you have to ask someone that, because they’re typically offended, and ouch when it’s your turn to be asked those questions… It’s like- hold up, whoa, stop for a minute, sorry for the inconvenience, but in whom does your identity lie? I’m guilty of saying I’m a Daughter of the King, but when it comes to harsh changes, questioning that same King. In those times, I need to ask myself “Hold up, who are you- and where did Sarah really go?”

What are you?
When everything changes, what are you really made of? This isn’t really a point as much as it is a question. I’d say that concerning Mr. W’s job changes we’ve dealt with since marriage, that I’ve consistently been in a whirlwind of change. Sometimes it feels like just when the winds stop blowing, and things start to settle, I see the trees blowing softly again, the winds starting all over again. My faith needs to be built on solid rock, not shifting sands. There is nothing worse than a windy day at the beach when you get sand blown into your eyes. It’s happened to me before, and it basically sucks. If you build your faith, and your foundation on something shifty, it’ll ruin your vision and your perspective.

Once again, Mr. W is changing jobs. We’re hoping and praying that this job will be the one he gets hired in full time. It’s been since December of 2008 since he’s had a full time permanent job (not through a temp service). I feel as if my glue bottle is empty, and God is the only one I can turn to. People ask why he is changing jobs so much, and I don’t have an answer- I just don’t know. All of this has helped me grow into a woman who turns to God, and who isn’t afraid of asking for help from her church family… I’m also no longer afraid of boldly proclaiming that I am a Child of God, and that I’m pretty sure I don’t have bones, I have steel rods that keep me standing. 🙂 Okay, maybe no steel rods, but I’m solid.

Where, Who, and What…Three questions to ask yourself in the midst of change… and maybe just maybe, the “Why is this happening to me?” won’t overtake you as much.

Praying God’s Best,
-Mrs. W.