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Emi

Posted on: 10.24.10

Legume, Peanut, Pumpkin, Lima Bean… all nicknames for a tiny baby that never had a chance to grow… thinking of Peanut Warner as a nickname is really… weird. I don’t know if it would be a boy or a girl, but I know it was a baby. I’d like to think of “Peanut” as a girl, as Emi… whose name in Japanese means blessing, favor and beautiful. I like to think she is favored by God and in heaven. October 19th will never be the same.  

Baby Emi, I’m so sorry I never got to meet you, but I’m so glad you’re with Jesus.

This picture says it better than I ever could.
-Mrs. W.

  • I’m not going to sit back any longer and watch my calling be turned to dust! I talked today to Pastor about becoming one of the churches ministers who preach, teach, etc… and work with the youth. I FEEL SO PEACEFUL about this!! Also, thanking God that our church was given nine acres of land for our youth camp, buildings are up, fields, courts, pools, bunks, etc… what a fantastic miracle!!
  • Also, today I’m holding fast to the promise that God will provide the desire of my heart… even Mr. W. prayed that I would be able to have a baby, which made me cry. Someday I will have a child… my faith is restored in this. And I’m kind of laughing at so many people relating me to Sarah from the Bible… which makes me wonder if I get pregnant with a little boy if he needs to be named Isaac.
  • I’m not quite ready for this week to start, I could use a 3-day weekend… Hmmm not sure when the next one will be! But I’ll be patient and let this week come as it may.
  • This week does hold promise- it’s the youth revival at church, and I’m excited to hear the different speakers.
  • I miss Gracie, our kitty, but she had FIV and we basically took her to a home where people could take care of her better (roomie called it a kitty hospice)…
  • I’m already tired of winter,and it’s only October 3rd… was it seriously this cold last year this time!?

What random is going on in your life?
-Mrs. W.

A puzzle to describe last night…

FRIDAY:
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And a smile for SATURDAY:

 

Isn’t Berkley adorable!? I had so much fun last night on my date nite with Andy!! We ended up going to friends afterwards to play Cranium with another couple! Such a fun night… and Berkley got to walk around the pet store today (he loves Petco). :-).

Have a great weekend!
-Mrs. W.

This is something I came up with a while ago, and used to do on blogger… Erin posted an SMS today, and I decided it would be a good week to do an SMS!

Dear Self,
     You’ve been doing great these past couple of weeks!! Some things to remember this week- treat Mr. W. the best way you possibly can! You’ve got such a great husband, he even goes out to buy you chocolate at BED TIME! What a wonderful man! Keep up the good work using the envelope system and controlling your finances- it’s only working because you’re putting God and your tithe first, and because you’re ACTUALLY communicating with your husband! A few things to work on this week- finish cleaning house and organizing… go through everything with a fine tooth comb and get rid of junk you’re not using! It will significantly help your move in the next few months. And take some time for yourself, it’s almost your birthday… take time to reflect and vision cast for your next year of life.
Love,
Mrs. W.

I know I haven’t posted a ‘daily devo’ blog all weekend, but I haven’t given up doing them. Saturday, I read that devotion with Mr. W. and talked about it with him, instead of blogging about it, and Sunday was church all day- I was in the word all day, and didn’t have my Stanley book with me. So, today I’ll blog again, about my devotional, and maybe a little extra.

One week ago, Mr. W. and I had serious discussions about our marriage, where it was, and where it was going… we also had discussions about wanting to change it’s direction, and other changes that must occur in order for overall, big change, to occur.

  1. We’re looking for a new apartment, something closer to my job, and a fair landlord.
  2. We’re looking to be by ourselves, for the first time in over a year- we got a roommate when we were married for only 3 months, and we never got the ‘honeymoon period’… We deserve it!
  3. We’ve changed churches already, that was a huge weight off of Mr. W.’s shoulders… He did a praise dance at church last night, the first one in about 8 months… first time dancing with banners and everything, in 8 months… it was incredible. He is incredible… and seeing God work through him is ABSOLUTELY incredible.
  4. Mr. W. got hired in! He is no longer a temp, he is an employee!! AND, in 30 days (from today), he’ll be eligible for Union Benefits, as well as another pay raise!! Today is his first day making serious money, and I am just amazed at how quickly God answers earnest prayers, once we are right with Him (and not just seeing him as a genie in a bottle to rub when you are feeling needy).

Overall, I can tell I’m standing at the beginning of a new season, looking into the horizon of what good is going to come. It’s a fresh start, and a new beginning… I’ll say it over and over again- AIN’T GOD GOOD!?!?!?! (I know it’s not gramatically correct)…

Blessed, despite of “me”,
-Mrs. W.

“His lovingkindness is great toward us.” -Psalm 117.2

God loves us with a sacrificial love. How do we know this? John 3.16- “For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever should believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”… it was a sacrifice. Stanley says this, “His love is sacrificial- given to us a an act of grace and without hesitation.” Throughout my life, as a Christian, I’ve always had to juggle spending quality time with God, versus doing my own thing… and I’ve been guilty of believing that because of how messed up my spiritual walk has been, his love for me has been on a sliding scale, like Oh, wonderful, I’ve spent 6 out of 7 days this week in prayer every morning, this week God really loves me… but last week, I only met with him once out of 7… last week God couldn’t care less about me.  But this isn’t true. No matter how my understanding of his love may vary, he remains the same. I’m so incredibly thankful to God for that! God agape loves me! If you don’t really know what agape means, it’s absolute adoration… he is “tickled pink” by me… he loves me so much more- even more than I could fathom (whether or not I spent 1/7 or 7/7 days with him!)… but he hates my sin. This is why I should strive to spend time with him, learning him, enjoying his presence. When I intentionally learn to love God, I’ll intentionally learn to love my spouse, and anyone else. Mr. W. may know I love him, but if I’m not spending time with him, learning him, and enjoying his presence in my life… then all I gave him were empty words.

I don’t want to give empty words anymore,
-Mrs. W.

Sometimes when you are married you have to do things for your spouse. When I was really hurt by a church we used to attend, even though Mr. W. didn’t know I was hurt, he agreed to find another place to worship… and we’ve been there for 7 months. We have become good friends with the people of this church, and have even been in ministry positions (worship team, children’s church, etc.)… but it has come full cycle. I am no longer hurt by the other church, God has healed a lot of things within me, and I have been blossoming…

However, Mr. W. has not been…. so what do we do? Plenty of married couples go to different churches, or different bodies of worship, however that’s not what I feel is right. For me, as a wife, sometimes I need to step to the side to allow my husband to lead us… and if he’s not in a position to want to lead, then I must step to the side, and push him forward. I never want to be the kind of wife who wears the pants, pulls the reins, and controls everything!! What about that is Biblical? Don’t worry, I’m not going to stop wearing make-up or growing my hair out and covering it, I’m not called to those laws… but I am called to more… to respect… read:

“Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands.  

Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish. In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, because we are members of his body.  “Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.” This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church. However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.” Ephesians 5.22-33 ESV 

So, for now, we’re going to try going to a church which will nurture and help Andy grow in his (prophetic) giftings… because when I look up front and see him on the worship team, and he’s just singing and not worshipping freely it brings me pain… that is what is important, being able to worship God freely, and see God moving mountains in my husband’s personal life… because when things start changing in his life, things will change for us.

Always,
-Mrs. W.